I can’t believe I have been writing this blog for a year now. It was literally this time last year I nervously put pen to paper for the first time. Ok, well not quite pen to paper, but I did sit down at my computer, take a deep breath and begin writing. I was so nervous when I first hit that “publish” button:
- What would people think?
- What if they didn’t like what I wrote?
- What if people misunderstood me?
- What if I offend people?
- What if I get hate mail?
- What if no one even reads my blog?
All those “what if” questions had held me back from starting months earlier, but I knew this was something God had told me to do, so I had to put on my big girl pants and just do it! You can read my first ever blog here. And now it’s crazy to think it’s 1 year later!
To be honest, some weeks it is hard work. The ideas aren’t there, the words don’t flow, and I sit and wonder what on earth I am doing! Other weeks I sit down and it’s like I can’t type fast enough to keep up with what’s pouring out of my heart and my head!
It has definitely been a journey of ups and downs, of valley and mountain top moments, and of discovering who I am……in a very public way!
A couple of months back, I was about to quit! I got so disheartened and started questioning why I was doing this, no one was probably reading it anyway so what was the point? My subscriber list had gone down, my Facebook followers weren’t going up and I had convinced myself that no one was reading it anyway! I went to bed telling God that it was fun while it lasted, but it was over, this blogging thing had gotten the better of me!
God is so awesome! He didn’t lecture me, He didn’t remind me that this is what He has called me to do, He didn’t send a bolt of lightning to hit me, nope, instead I woke up to an e-mail from a woman in America who had been touched by my blog!!! What the heck! America! I thought I was writing this for me, my Mum and a couple of friends to read, and all of a sudden I have people in a different country, not only reading my blog, but being so touched by it that they wanted me to know! I was so gobsmacked I just about fell off my chair! Later that week, I had another lady, thank me for what I had written! I knew this lady, but not that well. She wasn’t on my subscriber list, she hadn’t liked me on Facebook yet she was reading my blogs! Wow, I began to wonder who else in the world was reading them that I was not aware of!
Again, it was a gentle reminder from God about what He has called me to do. He has called me to write. To share my story, to be open and honest about my journey and what life throws at me! He has said to me “You just write and I will do the rest” And so that’s what I do!
It has been freeing (most days) not having to worry about who and how many people will read my babblings! If its 2000 people, then that is great and if its 2 people, then that is just as great! I will be obedient in what He has called me to do, and leave the rest to him!
So, Happy Anniversary A Fish out of Water.
Thank you to all my faithful followers. Thank you for your encouragement, your support and for travelling this crazy journey with me! I am excited to see where God will take us in the next year, the lessons we will learn, the experiences that will shape us and the life stories that will change who we are!