God, I think I left my Heart behind…..Again!

It happens every time!
Without fail, every time I leave the USA to come home, I leave a huge part of my heart behind!
The rest of the family gets so excited when hopping on that last flight home. They chat and talk excitedly about all they have missed and what they are going to do as soon as they get home!

Me? Well, I sit there listening to their cheerful chatter and wish to myself that we weren’t actually getting on a flight back to New Zealand.

Now, please don’t get me wrong. I love New Zealand and I love my life I have here, but there is something about the USA that pulls at my heart every time I am there.

I’m not sure quite what it is? I don’t know if it’s the food, how cheap everything is, how big everything is, the American accent, or what it is that pulls at my heart, but whatever it is, it is very real and makes settling in back home super hard for me. And for some reason I seem to hear God a whole lot clearer when I am over there!
I have to fight the negative thoughts that jump into my mind and remind myself daily that this is where God has called us to live for now!

It has been a hard week for me, but this morning, I decided to make a change! Instead of sitting and wallowing about the way I wish things could be, I have decided to check my attitude, give myself a slap, and look at all the things I am thankful for. There is nothing better for the soul than to sit down, make a list of all my Blessings and thank God for all I have instead of focusing on what I don’t have! And I can tell you, I am one super Blessed Chick!

You know, it is so easy for us to look at all we don’t have, or what other people have, or what we think we want and focus on that. We can find ourselves on a slippery slide of negativity and if we don’t watch ourselves, it will start to not only affect ourselves, but also affect the people around us. I for one, don’t want to be known as a negative pants, that is not the way God has called me to live, and so today I have made a stand!

Today, I am choosing to be positive. I am choosing to see the good around me. I am choosing to count my Blessings and I am choosing to be happy! What about you?

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