This week has started with yet another goodbye!
God is pruning things in my life at the moment and you know what? It super excites me!
Ok, admittedly I was in tears yesterday as I did my final blog post on a site I started 4 years ago and have been overseeing ever since. It was a bittersweet moment as I handed the baton on to the woman who is taking it over. As I handed over my baby and said “she is all yours now, look after her and please love her as much as I have” the tears welled in my eyes and I just let them flow. I let them flow till they were no more and then the healing began.
You can read my final farewell here.
I had a number of women contact me and said how brave I was handing over my baby, and what a servant heart I have. To be honest, I didn’t feel either of those things yesterday as I sat in tears and wondered if I had made the right decision, wondering if this woman would look after my baby. If she would do things how I did them and if she would love my baby as much as I did. But these things are not mine to worry about now and so I have let them go, otherwise, I will become so consumed by the past or what I am missing out on (there’s that FOMO again!) instead of focusing on what is ahead of me.
But as sad as this was for me, I knew it was what God was asking me to do. To let go of things that were holding me back from the new season He has for me to walk in. Not holding me back in a bad way, but now just headed in a different direction. This new season that I have no idea what it looks like, but a new season that is filled with shiny new possibilities.
God is already putting idea’s in my head and dreams in my heart and I just want to blurt out all He is saying to me. But I have learned from past experiences, some things are better left unsaid until you have a resounding yes!
So as I sit in my office and I dream and I plan, and I look at all that is ahead of me, I can’t help but smile to myself. Yes, goodbyes are hard but the promise of the future, my future in Him, is safe, secure and a maybe just a little bit scary.