It’s Not Suppose To Be This Way…..

I love books!
In fact, I would say I have a slight addiction to buying books. Some of them I buy on Kindle, but given the choice, I am a paper girl through and through.
There is something seriously delicious about getting a new book, flicking through the shiny new pages and smelling that beautiful scent of a new book……ahhh bliss!

I got a book in the mail a couple of weeks ago that I had seen a friend on Instagram recommend, and I just knew I had to read it. It arrived, but with all that was going on, it sat on my desk, unopened!

I knew I was going away for some time out with God and so I decided to take the book with me, so I could enjoy it, instead of grabbing a few minutes here and there, in the busyness of life.

WOW!
I am so blown away! Not only in this book, but in God’s timing!
This book has spoken to my heart like no other book I have ever read. I knew it was going to be life changing when I was in tears just reading the introduction!

When Phil reads a book, he sits there with his highlighter and sometimes I wonder if he is reading or coloring in! I personally don’t like to highlight books, maybe because in my mind I want to keep them looking new!

But this book. This book is highlighted on nearly every page with bright pink highlights! There is so much wisdom for this season I am walking through that already this book is looking loved, worn, and treasured. This is a book I won’t be lending to friends (but I will happily buy you a copy!) because so much of my heart is in pink highlights in this copy.

I have sobbed my way through this book. Honestly, I don’t think there was one chapter that the flood gates didn’t open and my heart was exposed.

At the end of every chapter are some highlights of that chapter, questions, scriptures and a prayer. I would normally skim those parts! But with this book, I have decided to write them all out, because at the moment it’s all about slowing down and taking time to do all that God is asking me to do, wholeheartedly and with intention.

So, I got myself a new journal and some colored pens (both super high on my love languages!!) and I have been spending precious time writing things out. My journal is colorful and color co-ordinated but more than that, this journal carries my heart and soul. This journal carries prayers that are raw, real and so painful. It carries my thoughts, fears, and hope for the future. This journal is my stones of remembrance for this season.

I know I will look back and be thankful for this hard season. I know I will look back and see all the lessons learned. I know I will be stronger, more resilient, and I know without a doubt my faith will have grown immensely!

But for now, I will continue to walk in this season. I will be thankful for all my blessings, one of them being this book!