• Still Breathing in the Tension

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    My living room table looks a bit like a map of my heart right now. On one side, there is a tiny, beautifully folded baby onsie. On the other side, a quiet, empty space where Pepper’s dog bed used to sit. My hands are still completely full of both immense joy and profound heartache. This past Saturday, I had the absolute privilege of sitting down with a group of women to talk about exactly this. We unpacked the beautiful, messy, and often exhausting reality of what it means to hold heartache and hope in the very same hand. Sitting in…

  • Embracing the “Just”

    For decades, my life was defined by what I did. I wore busyness like an invisible badge of honour. So, when that season came to what felt like a crashing halt, and the title was taken away, I’ll be honest:…

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    Do You See What He Sees?

    We spend so much of our lives looking at ourselves through a cracked mirror. When I look at my reflection, especially during seasons of major change, it’s easy to focus entirely on the flaws. I see the titles I no…

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    Who Even Am I?

    I was in the supermarket the other day, when someone from our old Church spotted me, smiled, and walked over. After the standard small talk, she asked the question I dread at the moment: “So, what are you up to…

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    Finding God in the Fog

    We spend so much of our lives waiting for the next big thing. We look forward to the day the transition ends, the uncertainty clears, and the layout of our future is neatly mapped out. But if you are sitting…

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    Finding Blessings Around Every Corner

    Sometimes I catch myself waiting for the “lightning bolt” prayers to be answered. The ones that change the course of your life in a single day. We pray for the big health breakthroughs, the major job shifts, or the mountain-moving…

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    Holding Heartache & Joy in the Same Hand

    There’s this big misconception out there that faith is a straight line from a “dark place” into the sunshine. Where once you’ve got God on your side, the messy feelings just poof away. But if you’ve lived through even one…

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    Buckle Up: The Sacred Roller Coaster of Life!

    If life were a theme park ride, I’m pretty sure I’d be the one in the front row with my eyes squeezed shut, alternating between screaming in terror and laughing hysterically. It’s been a season of whiplash, a literal roller…

  • A Front-Row Seat to a Miracle: Welcome Theo!

    We had a date marked on the calendar. We had a plan. But if my years walking with God have taught me anything, it’s that God’s timing is rarely our timing—and His ways are always infinitely higher. Our sweet grandson,…

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    Turning the Page to a Season of Joy

    For the past several weeks, this space has been a sanctuary for my broken heart. Writing about Pepper, processing the agonizing silence of her absence, and sharing the battle between my head and my heart has been a huge part…

  • 10 Ways Pepper Reminded Me of God’s Love

    I thought I might have moved on this week and write about something other than Pepper, but alas, here we still are. Walking through the waves of grief that are still hitting hard! When God blessed me with Pepper, I…