Owning My Sin!

Sin.
It’s not a word I like to associate with myself, but let’s face it, I am a sinner!
And I am learning to own my sin!
It’s easy to blame everything else in my world, to act like I am the victim of my own life: “It’s because of this, or its because of that. If this hadn’t had happened, or if this had happened…..” but lately God has been reminding me to own my sin.

Admittedly, there are some things that are out of my control, and for those, I am learning to forgive. But there are sins, that are completely mine to own!

King David made a lot of mistakes in his life, boy can I relate to his story! Sure we have different sins, but as David did, I am trying to do my best.
I love that David owned his sins, it may have taken him a while, but eventually, he did!
I’m sure David thought he could get away with his sin of sleeping with another man’s wife, and he tried to cover it (which didn’t work out so well for him!) but eventually, his sins caught up with him and he was confronted by the Prophet Nathan.

Davids’s response to Nathan was a single sentence “I have sinned against the Lord” Nathan said to David “The Lord has put away your sin; you shall not die.” (2 Sam 12:13)

David owned his sin, and God forgave him. Now we need to remember that there are always consequences for our sin, but God forgives us when we own them. When confronted by Nathan, David didn’t try to justify what he had done, he just owned up.
I am so thankful God doesn’t hold grudges, He is slow to anger and abounding in love. But we still need to confess our sins before Him. To take responsibility for our wrong thoughts or actions that don’t line up with His Word.

For the longest time, I thought my rebellious nature was a part of who I was. I could justify it with all that has happened in my life and even told myself it was a protection mechanism to keep myself safe! I knew what was best for me and I wasn’t going to listen to anyone who thought differently. Every time God would pull me up on it, I made excuse after excuse and carried on living in my rebellious ways. I wasn’t hurting anyone so really was it so bad? Most areas of my life were going well. I was a faithful wife, a loving Mum and a good friend. I was reading my Bible, going to Church, even praying daily, so was it really sin?

Yes.
The simple answer to that question is yes it was!

“Honey, it’s time you owned this so we can move on.”
“But God, I’m not a bad person!”
“No, you’re not. But you are letting this come between us, and I want to be as close to you as I can.”
“But God, it’s just who I am.”
“Oh honey, I know you believed that for the longest time, but I did not create you like that. I know you were protecting yourself, but I can do that now. You are safe with me, it’s going to be okay.”

And as I am doing a lot lately, I laid it all at the foot of the Cross. I got on my knee’s and I whispered the words “I have sinned against the Lord” and God gently drew me in and said “I know, but that’s okay. All is forgiven. Remember I love you more than you can begin to imagine. We will walk this out together”

And we will. One day at a time. One step at a time. One moment at a time.