Welcome To My Bubble!

I feel as though the world has entered my bubble!
I have been in a type of self-isolation since the start of this year. God asked me to lay down everything (and when He said everything, He meant everything!) to allow myself some space to really connect with Him again, to completely render my heart and to rediscover His plan for my life.

From the outside looking in, it looked like pure bliss!
No working.
No running ministries.
Un-interrupted time with God.
Time to do whatever I wanted.
Time. So much time. I mean its what we all want more of right?

But truth be told:

It is hard.
It feels out of our control.
It is not what I had planned.
There are so many emotions floating around, I’m unsure from hour to hour how I feel.
It is scary.
It is unknown.

Now that New Zealand is in a state of lockdown, it’s like everyone has joined my bubble, and it’s not quite as blissful as everyone thought it would be! But this has been my reality for the last 3 months!

And now, part of me feels cheated!
This was my last couple of weeks before the next phase kicked in…..I still have no idea what that looks like! But I feel like I haven’t finished yet, and people are crowding my bubble, and I just feel like screaming “GET OUT OF MY BUBBLE.”

It’s like nothing has changed, yet everything has changed for me. My emotions are on edge, and I am frustrated that I now have to share my bubble with the whole of New Zealand, not that anyone really wants to share it with me, but hey, here we all are. And now it doesn’t feel special.

I want to go back to how things were! (never thought I would be saying that 3 months ago!)
But one thing I know is that things never stay the same. Whether good or bad, things are always moving along, and to make life easier for myself, I need to move with it!

And so here we find ourselves. Same storm, different boat. Everyone in their own bubble, navigating what this new world looks like.

But instead of screaming at you to get out of my bubble, I choose to embrace you, because I get it! I know what it feels like, so welcome. Make yourself at home. We could be here a while.

But let me also tell you it is not all Netflix marathons while eating chips on the couch!

It is hard.
It feels out of our control.
It is not what you had planned.
There are so many emotions floating around, you’re unsure from hour to hour how you feel.
It is scary.
It is unknown.

BUT, let me also tell you, God is right in the middle with you! And that is all you need to know for certain. I know you will be okay. You will get through this.
And now you have what you always wanted, time!
Time to allow yourself some space to really connect with God again, to completely render your heart and to rediscover His plan for your life.

Welcome my friend, welcome!